amisunderstanding:

Life’s so much better when you smoke. i dont know how people don’t do it. 

(via onelifenotforever)

You don’t understand. Your family was the perfect picture when you were growing up. You never had to worry about a split family, and going back and forth to houses. You don’t understand how hard it is to go to 3 different houses each day. You don’t understand how much it breaks me every time. You don’t understand how frustrating it is because I always have to remember every last thing before I leave each place. You don’t understand how much I just want to call one place “home.” You don’t know how frustrating it is when I have to fill out an application and put my address on it and I never know what to put because I don’t know where my home is. I’ve been doing it since I was 13, and I’m 16 now. It’s time for a change..It’s time for stability. And even though your gonna scream and disagree, I need to do this for me. My home is where I’m happiest. I wanna lay my head down each night in my HOME.This isn’t healthy…I shouldn’t be crying over something like this, it was never meant to be this way. You got what you wanted; you got your “perfect” husband that you’ve been searching for. You can’t have the best of both worlds, you chose him over us. And now it’s time I get what I want and my happiness back, and even if it means hurting you..I’m gonna have to do it. Because I’m not gonna live like this. It’s not even “every other weekend” It’s every night I have to do this, live two different lives. I’m sorry, but I’m done.

Last night, he kissed me and then whispered really soft “your heart just started racing.” I smiled and put my head on his chest, and said “it only happens when I’m with you.”

You think by now my heart wouldn’t do that every time..but it does. Absolutely love the way he notices it every time. 

<3

He may not be perfect. He might hurt my feelings, and make me want to cry. He may have flaws that are hard to let go of. He might look at other girls and all their beauty. But then again. He might just be the first one to kiss me and mean it. He may be the only one who has ever done simple things like kiss me on the hand or nose. He might be the only one to ever grab my face and look me in the eyes and tell me he cares. He may be the only one who actually wants to know what I’m thinking. He might be the only one to notice the way my heart beats faster every time he pulls me close. He may be the only one who I feel no shame in telling what’s on my mind. He might be the only one to go out of his way just to put a smile on my face each day. He may be the only one who grabs my hand and won’t let me walk away when we fight. And he might, just might, be the one I see myself truly having something real with.

See how the good weighs out all the bad in our relationship? That’s how I know you’re worth it<3